Tuesday, June 7, 2011
said He had come to serve! There is some question as to Who Jesus was, but even the most agnostic of
humans cannot deny He has been the most influential Man in history. Furthermore, if you believe His is more, that He is kindred with God, God's Son, what a profound point of view. The Son of God came to serve, rather than be served. What if this was always His plan, what if this (all our trouble) was all meant? The remarkable converted Rabbi, who suffered for so many years and suffered so, so much, his name was
Paul, said I am comforted by the One who is the True Comforter. I know that night, almost three years ago,
when we got the call to go and pick up Emma's car, when we saw the most dreadful moment, I would have
given up my "Denali", my "home", my "stuff" to protect and help her, without a thought. Would I not be willing to suffer for the sake of connecting with and serving others? I was called by God to serve, since I was a little girl. America is not built on serving it is built on being served and being Master.
I know it sounds odd, but when I realized we were utterly and totally alone, no-one was there, no-one was coming, no-one was listening, and no-one was, even, looking, I heard God speak to me, not in a voice, but in a deep impression in my heart, that He was going to take care of everything we needed, but He would do it day to day as we needed. That was really scary, really outrageous, but I can say, two years have passed and we still have what we need, at least through "this" day. It has not been an easy thing living this "day to "day" way of life, but I am confident that God is true to His word, He is true to His promises, and our life is bigger than this world we know. What we have built our lives on is very old fashioned, very archaic, but I long ago decided I would focus on His purpose for my life, and that is what I have tried to do, that is what we have tried to do, if we have been wrong how far back do we have to go to find when and where it was? In spite of all of it I still believe what God has promised us and what He has said was our purpose, and I believe He does not lie, and is incapable of it. There is an afterlife that we will face, and this life will seem short. When Kenny goes in to pray with the kids at night and I hear Emma yell out, (yes Emma home at 9:00) good night Mom I love you, I have a peace that is not dependent on my circumstances of that day. It is based on knowing things are right where they are suppose to be. Things don't always have to be easy, things don't always to have to make sense, but I think I see this new lot in life as an honor, as if I have been chosen for a moment in time to be a small part of helping others who may be in a dark and despairing place, and at this moment in my life, it is well with my soul.
Posted by Angela Marie at 4:57 PM